So I’ve had a little bit of a change up in life recently. I wouldn’t say that I’ve grown up, I’d more say that my childish self has done some sort of deal with my obsessive self and they’ve decided that this is happening. Yes I have an obsessive self and it’s not one of those mental health issues, when I have something that I really want to do or an idea and it’s the thing that I’m determined to do, I will keep at it. It’s a flaw, but also it’s a positive.
Firstly, last week I joined the Labour party. I know right? How did that come about?
Well I watch a lot of TV news, so the first thing I noticed is the inaccuracies or odd views the BBC had at times, and as I’m aware of how things are reported and filmed and the magic of television thanks to having two media qualifications and knowing that organisations tend to have an angle. I usually put these on facebook, and usually it’s something like “Oh the woman who does the weather is Sarah Blizzard” or “They’re not in London, they’re in SALFORD… THEY STOPPED PRESENTING BBC BREAKFAST FROM LONDON 5 YEARS AGO!!!” you know… that sort of crap.
So what did it for me I think was Brexit. Since Jeremy Corbyn was voted in as leader of the Labour party I’d considered whether maybe he could be the guy to get us out of this Conservative shartfarce that we’ve been in ever since the coalition. made worse by the split in the 2015 election… and to be honest with you, in the four years it happened you’d have thought shit couldn’t get any worse… when now you look back things were so much better when you consider the crap we’re in now. So I watched some of the debates on TV and was astounded by how much blame was put on the E.U on issues that were actually issues the conservatives were actually in charge of. Then as far as making my decision on remain or stay… I figured there wasn’t really much information about leaving and staying wouldn’t really change much, so I voted remain. Plus it seemed crazy to me that a party that had no clear path of what they are actually going to do could achieve what they wanted until they actually started scaring people.
Now alongside all this, my fiancee Aphre is very political but wasn’t part of any party, so along with my own observations of the news and looking online and her worries about the way this country is going, I paid attention to it for a long period of time. I’m not sure whether this became a Stockholme syndrome towards politics but spending so much time watching it and being concerned, I kind of felt like maybe it’s time I should do something about this along with a bunch of other folks on the internet. For a really small time, I’d considered whether I could be in politics, and thought don’t be fucking silly… I mean I have media experience and did comedy so could use that to do some public speaking, and I’d increase my following, and then I thought don’t be fucking silly again. I did think that I could actually show I have a fuck and support a guy who 1) needs it and 2) I believe in so I joined the Labour party.
Since then I have kept an eye on the members forum on Facebook and I tend to find myself going there and reading comments and posts quite a lot and I’m a lot more bothered about certain things more than I have been in recent years where as for instance in the early 2000s I’d have not been too bothered about political parties, politics, leaders and all that. That’s because I was brought up to believe that it didn’t matter whether I voted or not because whatever I voted for I’d still not like it. Politics was bundled in with the news, or wars. It wasn’t until the 2010 elections when I actually thought that maybe my future mattered and I should maybe vote for someone who had that in mind. I was one of the people who voted for Nick Glegg. Things went fucked. in 2015 I went for Greens as obviously after the massive Lib Dem fuck up I felt that they were the party that had the best ideas, even if they were not the most popular that didn’t matter because I went with the principal. Then the Jeremy Corbyn biz happened and upon looking at lots of old videos, watching some Tony Benn also… and listening to the Corbyn was saying… they made sense.
So before I joined but just after Brexit I noticed a few things. The pound was really low compared to the dollar (today it hit another new low. I’ve been looking at it fall regularly). This is something that I’m concerned with/obsessed with because it’s scary to look at and wonder when it counts as a recession. LOOK AT IT!
The big graph is how much our £ has changed today… the bottom one is how it’s changed this year. You see that final bit of it being high… That’s the day before Brexit!
Corbyn was getting flack from his party for not doing enough and I did wonder where he’d gone and it turns out that he just wasn’t getting media attention from my favorite broadcasting establishment… and I was like WHAAAA! How dare you BBC to try and turn me on someone who I highly regard as a politician that could change this country, I thought you were my friend (But obviously not because you still refuse to employ me). So yeah I thought about it. I went on the website and literally 5 minutes after looking, my friend Rich asked me if I was going to join, so I took it as a sign.
Now as far as Brexit, I’m not a happy bunny. I strongly feel that we should have stayed in the E.U as it means there’s freedom to go wherever I want. I respect that the leave vote was the winning vote, but I also think that it was a fucking stupid decision, but I wouldn’t hate anyone for doing what they thought was right, even though it was clearly wrong. I also don’t think that blaming older people for fucking the younger generation over, and I also wouldn’t say everyone who voted leave was a racist, more of racists voted to leave along with non racists. Who knows what the fuck happened there. Maybe Johnson, Gove and Farrage honed in on the vulnerable and scared them. Maybe some people just believe what charismatic politicians say even though it’s utter kunk.
I doubt that I would ever actually have a political career but maybe I might actually get involved in political matters more often. This is not the only change that makes me question what the fuck I’m doing, but I’ve gone VEGAN!
Yes, that is the guy who plays the Atom on Arrow, who also was Superman once
Ok, so this has not happened to me yet as I had cheese on toast this morning but that’s because I didn’t want to waste the cheese. Dinners have been interesting this week so far, so tomorrow let the fun continue. Maybe I will actually lose some weight, who knows.
Today something has ruined a core part of me that took a long time to repair and it’s just all been scratched down like a construction worker who has said “This is all wrong, it all has to come down”. I can’t really explain the situation in the way it actually is because it’s really fucked up, it could potentially damage a bunch of stuff but I feel like I need to air the way I’m feeling about it. Today I found that inside a newspaper that someone I trusted had done something really bad. Now what made this thing really hard to even comprehend in the first place is because when I first heard about this from someone else I really trusted and was close to, I wasn’t sure which one to believe. I felt I could never turn my back on either of them, so I accepted that this bad thing may have happened, but could never validate one against. I couldn’t believe that any of them would have lied to me. Turns out one lied more than the other, and although I’d not intentionally distanced myself one of them had, and because of that, I was risking losing one of them.
So person 1 – I’d had a strong connection with them since I was little. They were like my idol when I was little, I found them funny and even though I’d not seen them for a few years, when I reconnected with them I still thought they were funny, but as an adult I could see that they needed to take control of their own life and stop just agreeing to things because they thought that’s what wanted people wanted them to do, and any other way of thinking was wrong – they had self confidence issues and I was trying to help them with that.
Person 2 – I got close to this person around the same time as reconnecting with Person 1, and we spent a lot of our time together because we just seemed to tally up together. I see them as a life-long ally in this world, and even though we’re not as close as we used to be, I feel like it wouldn’t take a lot to repair that if I was in a closer location or could spend more time together. What they said about person 2 had no baring on why I’d not been able to have as much time for them, I’ve had a lot on and not as much money as I’d hoped I’d have. They backed off though knowing that I was spending time with Person 1 which I feel really bad about.
It turns out that something happened in the paper that tallies up with what Person 2 said about Person 1. So now when I was trying to do my best for person 1, I find that I’ve been betrayed and lied to – not to mention the actual things they did. I’m sad about it. I’m furious too as I’d given person 1 another chance after telling me they did something really stupid that could have risked things for me too. All I actually want to do is hug person 2 and maybe have a bit of a cry or something. But thanks to person 1 doing what they did, I can never associate with them ever again. and that really sucks for me because it’s ruined every fun memory I’ve had with that person and it can’t ever be repaired. I guess it’s one thing that I can’t let “Floaty Away”.
And finally today to leave things on a high after that bunch of twakballs, I’ve got some fun news on the way… I’ll be revealing that hopefully in the next few days.