Today’s been a bit of an annoying day, One of those days where I want to do loads, but things happen and then what I wanted to do didn’t happen. I just feel like having a curl up and hide. I was up all last night with Finn. Aphre is nice enough to let me have a night off tonight though so I can catch up on sleep.
I’ve just gone back over the last post and my other friends posts about similar things. I still feel like I have loads to say about the matter, but at the same time think maybe I shouldn’t. I don’t want to dwell on it too much because it’s times where I’ve not been the happiest and although I was able to overcome it from making fun of it, making others smile or just getting around it by working with people I liked, it’s kind of a reminder that those people aren’t around now and wonder which ones were as genuine as I thought they were. I don’t like thinking it but I think my mind looks for what it thinks is the most likely reason.
In good news… Ruby’s here on Sunday which is going to be fun. I do have to get a bloody long train again. Long as in length of the journey time wise not length of the actual train, that would be silly. It’s also my birthday next week. I’ve banned the phrase “Big Three – Oh” because it’s not big compaired to “The Big Five-Oh” which is really what the phrase is refering to… and 50 is bigger than 30… 30 is middle sized compaired to 50, and 60 is bigger than 50 (Because that’s how numbers work) so compaired to 60, 30 is not big at all so AHH!!! That’s like saying to a 10 year old “The big One-Oh” NO! BE CREATIVE.What I’m trying to get at is that 30 isn’t an age that is big. If i died tomorrow people would say “He was so young” and all that bollocks.
On the point of age though… I feel like after 29 years old… you stop being old and become OLD. like actual OLD old, not like that says your age, more of OLD as in to say old shoes or pens or printers. I’m from 1984 when George Micheal actually had hits and people watched Tommy Cooper or the Two Ronnies at christmas.
I don’t know what I’m on about now. Oh also Iwon’t say where but I read something yesterday that made reference to me as “The Sperm Donor” which I thought was uhh… tactful.
Before I go to bed, I just want to go on about one more thing which has been nagging at me a few days. The first isn’t a huge one. The Job in Norwich didn’t happen. They employed someone who had slightly stronger skills in a certain area where I was told my best strengths were my technical skills but could do better with community engagement and employed someone with more of that experience. Fair comment, I kind of agree. I think I need to be in a role already to know what’s been done in a community rather than trying to actually think of something from an outsiders point of view and I need to figure that one out. I think maybe it was the case of that it could have been mine, but I wasn’t on the case that day 😛
Tonight’s main feature is a reply from a Job I recently applied for and didn’t even get to the interviewing stages. There was a line in the reply that has really angered me where I really want to reply to the sender… but decided not to on the basis that it may put them off employing me if something else arises at their station.
The email contained this:
“As you’ve got community radio experience, perhaps you could now try volunteering for local commercial radio stations next, to expand your experience”
Right… so anyone who has not only read my blog (Which to be fair they wouldn’t have, if so, Hi) but if they bothered to read my CV (Which by the way is a creative CV, unlike the standard CVs you send off for an office Job) the person who wrote this would have seen that yes, I have had Community Radio experience between the years of 2007 – 2009 which by the way I helped set up and launch and was head of music, head of technical and trained new people, but would have also seen that in 2003 – 2005 I volunteered for dab COMMERCIAL radio station Swindon FM, 6 months as a volunteer at COMMERCIAL station Brunel FM (2007) and additional work experience at Brunel FM in 2009, volunteered at COMMERCIAL station Original radio in Bristol and at various other COMMERCIAL stations as work experience across the UK. I’ve also worked on student radio but mainly COMPLETED A FRICKING RADIO DEGREE. MY EXPERIENCE SPANS 11 YEARS… MORE EXPERIENCE??? MORE??? Also, It was for almost exactly the same type of job as the one in Norwich. The commercial station I applied for… it was an INSULT to say that. Also as one person who is on my facebook (Who by the way I respect as a talented broadcaster) said, you wouldn’t volunteer at tesco”,
I’m nearly 30 years old… I don’t need to do more free things any more! I’m fighting off the temptation to send it anyway and I will but to not even bother reading it which they clearly didn’t do. My cover letter outlined the experience relevent to the job… not my whole experience… surely that’s why you asked for a CV!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Also I had a similar conversation with my girlfriend’s cousin’s boyfriend (Keep up) who suggested I tried the local stations and did free things. The thing is It’s not a hobby. I don’t sit at home playing radio like some sit playing legos or train sets. I stopped even bothering to try to explain because I don’t think he would have understood the industry I’ve decided to work in. He wouldn’t know that Heart actually comes from London and that there;s more to radio than presenting shows and theres producers and stuff, but also loads of other people who want to work there. I would have had to explain the whole thing though, which would have been a whole long boring story of the radio and why he was wrong and maybe insulted him and I didn’t want to do that because he’s a nice bloke.
Right… I have vented. Maybe now I can forget about it and move on.