Monthly Archives: September 2012

im in the bed

so im in bed now for an early bed time. the chances r i will be laid here awake for a bit. but its better than watching tv. the last few days iv actually felt quite good. i think sleep and rest might be the answer to a lot of things at the moment. stay off drink, just be positive really. it might be a bit selfish too… but i normally get concerned with other people and hope they are ok and try and help them thru things but i need to let them get on with it and not care. my door is  closed and my ears are shut. its me time now!

My landlord came round today. it was the second time i’ve really seen him like he was… in a cocky aggressive “im boss” way and it was rather entertaining. when u have an uncle like bob back in the day… well it helps. he was very bob like and i think its mostly for show because id spoke and emailed him twice before his visit and he was like i not spoke to him for like forever. im a little late on the rent… what does he expect? student finance dont come thru till later in the month. i figured ages ago the best way to be is that everything is an exaduration and dont take his comments personal, although he really shud be careful just incase his tennents have problems like depression or anxity because that cud hav bad conciquences lol.

Anyway he asked me to explain the fridge to him. Sometimes when i get put on the spot my chest goes tight and i find it hard to breathe out… its a panic response even tho i hav nothing to worry about. i used to get it in class alot but i learnt to calm down or get used to the situation. so him coming without prior warning, storming and nit picking. still it was funny. not sure if i like him yet.

right. i need to sleep. so latersss!

The Shower Room

So i just had a shower… this happens regularly. Its not a special thing. Anyway this room has got to be the worst room i’ve had to experience in history. Actually no thinking about it the spider filled shed in purton was spooky. It even had snakes. This shower room in not filled with snakes or spiders or any other creepys. Its just got a shower. Nothing else, and its a small room too.

It makes me think how it could be restructured. Last month it was part of the main bathroom which is right next to it. This houses a sink, toilet and another shower. So they decided to put another door in. The enterence to these rooms are via the living room. Yeah… practical right?

So leave the doors open you see everything. The living room/communal area only has 2 tv ports and the doors are in weird places so really the only place to put the TV is where they put the new door so you have to walk behind the TV to get to the toilet and make sure you close the door all the time or the whole place smells. This “new” shower room though… You can shower in it obviously but its pretty small to get dressed in and everything gets wet when you come out the shower cause theres nowhere to put your clothes. For practicality the only other use for this room other to have a shower would be if we needed some sort of fall out shelter from the protect and survive stuff during the cold war.

Todays plans then. Do work i should have, find work that pays and be positive. Whoo!

Anyway i better get some breakfast/lunch

Month of silence

Hey there, thought I would drop by and say hi while i was here checking my stats of whose had a look at the blog and stuff.

I’ve had an eventful few weeks kind of. same old stuff in a way but i had Ruby for a week. She seems to have learnt the word “Invalid” which means “no hands”. Im very tired… as it seems is usual. Not been feelin to chirpy but hey it happens. 
Uni is starting again in a few weeks. im hoping to have sorted these sleep things out by then because i really need to get next year sorted. Going back as a second year is going to feel mega weird. 
On the female front… no change really. Was talking to one girl but she is in some sort of open relationship with her ex or something and another one i was speaking to has fallen for someone else so thats me out. These people randomly got in touch on a dating website i was on ages ago, so it was just chance they messaged. I’m still getting unwanted attention and the person i want to talk to and spend time with… well i dont think i should go there. All i will say though is that i miss them fucking loads. Sam and Rich hav been givin me advice too and the weekend just gone I’ve had ex (and friend) Sammie come round over the weekend
Which leads me onto what the hell frankie and bennies do with their pizzas! They put it on a podium… Why??? Yes i admire that you put plenty of rockit on the pizza but you didnt have to put it on a podium so it pokes you in the eye and that every word i spoke was spoken all over a pizza. they even brought a camp man specially to put it on the table and offer us stuff.