Today has been a shit day. I spend all my energy on staying calm so i dont get stressed out, so the dyslexia doesnt get in the way so im not pressured, only to be shouted at about pointless things that dont matter. All i wanted to do is get the fucking assignment in, so after i was nicely offered to hurry up by 8 i did, but what blew it and sent me into a free fall of energy was i get shouted at and accused of being stupid because i didn’t see the point of putting a tape onto an assignment sheet because of fear of the slight possibility of the disk falling out in transit from one assignment box to another.
I could only just about handle that. I could feel my head going into overload mode as i’ve not been feeling too well today so I’ve been extra crabby but i took everyone else’s stresses today into consideration. But today has all been about poinless things like the need to label genres into their correct and only topic when really… who gives a fuck?
Its got to the point where the smallest thing is picked upon and switched into a negative or a reason to argue about which to be honest i really cant be fucked to argue back because my stress levels are through the roof and I’m really not in the mood for it.
someone also mentioned the word “Pub” which i’d not heard in a long time, and agreed to go. but due to things taking too long that plan changed into home. Thing is i really needed some alcohol because I cant take any more today. The down side is that there is nobody else here, something i was kinda hoping to happen to lift my spirits up because I’m really not cool right now, but meh its happened before, im sure it will happen again – and that’s positive because with sight of it happening again, it means this time wont be the last.
I also cut my hair last night/this morning so i look more of an idiot than normal. My hair was getting annoying so in the state of randomness i decided to shave it off. It is very short now. I know i dont suit it but just the shock of some people is weird.
I’ve had a couple of shots and a fair bit of my Apple Smirnoff and Dr Pepper. I think i may be able to finish the bottle tonight,either that or i’ll drink myself to sleep.
To pick me up i’m attempting the escape route. I’m putting The Mighty Boosh on my projector.